Friday, September 14, 2007
- 6:20 AM
i know its been a while. and this place has been dead. but i'm feeling very down now so shall just spill. prelims are on. and well, they're going alright i guess.not bad. hope i'll do okay as well. but i just feel so alone. sure, family is there. but who else? i mean, i'm quite pathetic. i've been in new town for 4 years. and i dont have any close friends. well i had. but all sorta got pissed off at me just cause of my ed. so now i'm left with basically nth. no girlfriends to prom with. no nobody. just plain old me. somehow i just piss everyone in my path off. so there must be sth wrong with me then. since i cant do anything right. i see everyone now cliquing together. and it's inevitable. but hell. maybe i'm jealous. well. yeah. cause i dont have the privilege of having a close knit of friends. i wonder if anyone ever treasured their friendship with me. it must really suck to be vidya's friend. tsk. no wonder... no wonder. if you see, i'm floating arnd sch. i'm not here nor there.i just wish someone would be there! but no, i've to stand on my own. as always. WHY!?!?! i dont want to anymore! I WISH THINGS WERE BACK THE WAY THEY WERE! i miss her so much! and she doesnt care. or bother to care. i miss everything. but she's moved on so quickly. and i'm still here, the pathetic soul. as always. it's not fair! was i that unworthy a friend? i suppose i was really kidding myself when i said i've gotten over everything. because ive clearly NOT.Labels: 9:38 PM
