Saturday, April 28, 2007

- 11:35 PM

yijun i hope you get to read this.

i just want to say, i am very sorry. for everything. i know and realize how much i've hurt you and i sincerely apologize for it. i know that nothing i can say will uncover all that i have said. i'm just very sorry and i dont know what else to say. i dont know what to do. i know i was a jealous pig and i was insensitive and i wasnt there for you when u needed me. i know that. and i'm sorry for it. i noe sometimes sorry doesn solve things. but i just thought i'd let you know i really mean it. if i didnt, would i keep pestering you with all those msges ? and would i dwell on it, even in my dreams and nightmares? i watched the cheetah girls. and other shows. where best friends or just good friends fall out, but eventually they dont let anything stand in their way . of their frenship. why couldn it be the case here? maybe i wasnt worth that much? or maybe, you just have other friends now? that a small, insecure little brat like me wouldnt make that much of a difference in your life anymore. maybe i wasnt worth much to you at all. i dont know. but i do know this, if i were, then we would still be talking now. but we're not. and that was your choice. it makes me cry. and im not ashamed to admit it. yes, i seem desperate and alone. but maybe i am? i just want things to go back to the way they were. is it that hard? i mean at least give me a chance? dont ignore me. dont push me away. even though i did to you. i'm very sorry. please, i hope you realize i really am sincere. i didnt mean for it to end. i didnt mean for all this to happen. i just want you back. i tried calling you just now. crying my eyes out. and wanted to apologize and hopefully get you talking to me once again. but no, you didnt pick up, and that's ok i guess. i just hope you realize, i really want things to be alright again. i want my best friend back. ): it hurts to know that you're unwanted for 'this period of time' in your words. it hurts to know that there are others more important and it also hurts to know that it was all my fault in the beginning. and i didnt even realize it. i wish i could tell you how sorry i am. but i cant. i'm already close to begging you. I'M SORRY. i'd yell it to the whole world if i could. PLEASE FORGIVE ME.

just the girl.

VIDYA
15-going-on-16! XD
~~rafflesian~~
newtowner ):
~~e1/1'o4~~
~~e2/1'o5~~
~~e3/2'o6~~
e4/2'o7
softballer fereva!!!
catcher!!(:

she loves
-SOFTBALL!!
-ana
-goofing around
-being craaazy!
-drivin ppl mad!!
-laming around.
-HUHarharhar.
-makin ppl laugh!! (: -grinz-

she hates.
liars?*
=DOCTORS!! they suck.
=giving up. (altho i always do) )): =musicals

Wishlist

she just wants
~~/ipod shuffle~~
/score for o's
/softball!
/get past this period!
~~/my own mitt!~~
/nike shoes!!
/to get on with life.
/to play nxt yr!
/to reorganize my life.

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