Wednesday, March 21, 2007
- 4:40 PM
i know everyone in the team hates me. at least the sec4's. i know it. you guys dont have to hide it. and pretend that everything's alright. when we all know it's not. i know it's sucha torture for u all to see my fcking face right? well im sorry. im staying. and it'll only be a matter of months before you can be free of me. sorry im there. im so sorry you hate me. whatever. too bad. dont know what i did to deserve it. but i guess i do? anyways, i've learnt that frenships DO NOT last. at all. ppl change, ppl turn into biatches. let them. i cant and WONT do anything to stop them. it's their life. but why me? it's not like i've done anything remotely wrong to you guys right? jeez. anyway, all i want to do is get my good grades for o's. and GET OUT of new town. where i can leave all this sh** behind. and get a good start to my life. all over again, yes. i'm prepared to do it. but for now, it's just so crappy to be feeling so alone. alone in class, alone in school. alone everywhere. loner. ): only when i'm out of sch i'm happy . serious. when i'm with my family. my sister, mainly. even tho we argue like nuts! and my lovelies JY! (: man wish it was nawruz all over again! miss it. have to wait one yr. ): sigh. i hate my current life. to think, i spent nearly 45 mins in the toilet during physics.
