Wednesday, March 28, 2007
- 4:56 PM
i am the one. i'm the bitch. i'm the one who started everything. im the one who drove everyone away. i'm the one who brought all this upon my stupid self. and now i'm the one who's paying for it. so i guess i shldn complain anymore. cause i deserve it. i had a really great supportive team who never failed to be there for me when i needed them. and yet, i still said in anger.. that we're not one. they never cared, and all that . which is so obviously rubbish. but what's done is done. and i cant undo it. and sadly, i dont think i can earn back a place in there. and that's okay. cause i guess that's life. since they're already moved on with it, i think it's only fair to myself that i do too. so i guess this is the end then? i've apologized for my grave mistake. and i thank melissa guo and penny for making me realize it. even though i think it's too late. better late then never? i guess now i know what i shld be like. and i will never repeat this mistake in my JC days. with my softball mates. hopefully. because it hurts to see your team mates on the other side of your world, and there's nothing you can do to help it. but, it hurts even more to know that i've brought it upon myself and now i'm left with no choice but to live with the consequences of my actions.. and to pray that one day, hopefully, i will be forgiven for what i've done. i'm sorry once again. to all sec4 softballers.. and esp yijun, i'm truly sorry.
