Saturday, February 24, 2007
- 6:37 PM
screw everything. i hate myself. i hate you.and you and you and you. *looks in mirror* so that's just me. i hate you vidya. you deserve to die. again. die again. as if once isnt enough. man why didnt the big guy up there take me the last time he wanted to?? why let me stay on this rotten stupid idiotic unfair world? when i dont even want to. you hear me? I DONT WANT TO STAY HERE. i want to run away. far far far away where my past will STOP HAUNTING ME. go away. i hate seeing it happen over and over again. i hate being rejected over and over and over again. i hate seeing my life crumble here. i hate seeing you so carefree like nothing's happened when im here crying inside. and out. i hate it whenever i think about you and end up crawled up sobbing like a young child. i hate thinking it's the end when i logically know it's not. i hate seeing people move on when i know i'm stuck in a vortex, unable to move. stuck. wanting to get out. but being held back. by some grey force. I HATE HOW MY PAST KEEPS COMING BACK. i hate how my life's changed. i hate going to school. i hate so much. bottom line, *i hate you vidya. and i know i'm definitely not alone when i say that.
