Monday, February 05, 2007
- 8:58 PM
i hate today! i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!!!!! first. had common test. which was generally okay.. not the point! and then training. sigh. training trainin trainin.. wad can i say.. it makes me feel like shit all the time! ); first. you said i've attitude. wtf? i know sometimes i can be nasty and all. cause i really wanna play so bad! and sometimes i let that get in the way. but call me selfish? when i really dont wanna be? now that's hurtful. i swear i almost cried. i know. i'm sucha big baby. that's me for you. but still. y'd u have to say that? and wad was with the ESP YOU. hullo? dont i feel shitty enough without you having to add to it?? i'm sorry but i really give up already. i'm never going to be good enough for you. for anyone, for that matter. it's always going to be 'you've changed. and i dont know how to handle this new vid'. you spoilt my day, you know that? you ruined my mood. not blaming you. but really. you did. i'm sorry to say. i know it may sound rather disrespectful. but maybe that's why i'm not telling it to you in your face. sigh. i'm sucha moron. ): sometimes i really wonder why i try so hard? when i know it can never be. keep trying? honestly. it's drainin me of all my energy. and i dont like it. cause its getting NOWHERE!
