Friday, January 26, 2007

- 7:25 PM

man. we coulda won rgs. ): but in the end.. 12-8. YUCK. omg. that's crap man. we made alot of errors in the 3rd inning. and that's so frustrating. i mean. we coulda won! WON RGS MAN! how great is that!! its like history! heh. but oh well. we werent destined. sigh. just like how i'm not destined to play. but hey, we could have been destined but just got unlucky? so does that make me destined too? hmm i wonder. haha. i'm so sick of this new me. i'm going back to the old me. but that's kinda hard. very hard. it's not so simple as just switching back u noe. everyone tells me.. 'i miss the old vidya. i want her back.' it's like they make it sound so simple. well it's not. and nobody understands that! groan. nationals comin soon. on feb 7th. not like im gonna play anyway. AGAIN. sit out. AGAIN. no cca points. sob. no anything. it's hopeless. i wanna play so badly. i'm itching everywhere. but coach wont let me. why? he doesn even gimme a CHANCE to prove myself man! he just says.. ' u wanna catch? show me u can'. but how can i do that when he doesn even let me! its like. every training its just oh you. go fence bat. or rest or drink water. i can freaking do that without a coach ok. who needs a coach to tell u to rest or drink water??? cmon.
it's so not fair. and i'm really sad. cos i feel like i'm losing my best fren of 3 yrs. )'; just makes me wanna cry inside. sigh. and it's my fault? i think. everything's my fault. stupid girl. why do u ruin your life like that?

just the girl.

VIDYA
15-going-on-16! XD
~~rafflesian~~
newtowner ):
~~e1/1'o4~~
~~e2/1'o5~~
~~e3/2'o6~~
e4/2'o7
softballer fereva!!!
catcher!!(:

she loves
-SOFTBALL!!
-ana
-goofing around
-being craaazy!
-drivin ppl mad!!
-laming around.
-HUHarharhar.
-makin ppl laugh!! (: -grinz-

she hates.
liars?*
=DOCTORS!! they suck.
=giving up. (altho i always do) )): =musicals

Wishlist

she just wants
~~/ipod shuffle~~
/score for o's
/softball!
/get past this period!
~~/my own mitt!~~
/nike shoes!!
/to get on with life.
/to play nxt yr!
/to reorganize my life.

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