Thursday, January 04, 2007
- 8:40 PM
yes. i'm a rude, ignorant little bitch. and i know it. stupid thing is i cant do anything about it. see! it's all aabout ME. and then everyone else. see how SELFISH i am? why am i even given another chance to live? i shld have just gone when i was supposed to! but no, i'm still here. torturing my family and myself. WHY? i just dont understand? and softball season's starting soon. like i'm going to play. NOT. exactly. so there's no bloody point right? ); WHAT IS GOING ON??
got a bit of a wake up call today. more like a wake up yelling. frm none other than ms tan herself. well. she was right you know. i am selfish and rude. and i just wish she would've slapped me on the spot. didnt go for the orientation thing. why? COZ I'M NOT A STUDENT LEADER. LEADER, NO. FAILURE, YES. im not worthy of being called a leader. at all. and this is a captain? hell no. leaders lead, not fail like me. maybe i shld step down. let jun handle it. she's a great leader. and doesn fail. like me. cos apparently that's wad i'm really good at. failing to lead. (; hmm.. oh well. who cares abt vidya. she's stupid and dumb. and she's wasting her life away.. and she wants to. so she wants everyone to let her be.
DONT U PPL UNDERSTAND. I CANT DO IT!! NOT ANYMORE. it's too hard. or rather, I'M TOO WEAK AND STUPID. that's how i ended up this way right? i'm sooo sorry for my family. they didnt do anything to deserve sucha child. disown me pls? my grandparents are old. DUH. and they have sucha bitch to look after. wad is this? a punishment to them?? ); PLEASE SOMEBODY LET ME DIE. WHERE'S THE GOD OF DEATH WHEN YOU NEED HIM?? IN THE MOVIES. IN DEATH NOTE 2. GRR.
