Monday, January 29, 2007

- 6:58 PM

okay. feelings check! i'm feeling .. err. irritated. yep. that's the word. i'm irritated. no.1- the coach doesn bother abt me. duh. he doesn even know i exist. oh whatever, vidya. why u bother so much abt wad others think of you? okay. anyway. no.2- i hate what i've done to myself. i regret so much now. its funny. at that moment when you decide sth, you fail to actually think about the long run. sound familiar? yeah. we all do it. as teens. which just SUCKS. lol. sorry guys. it's true! i cant believe sth i took comfort in actually ended up DESTROYING my entire hopes and dreams. sigh. suckish. but true. oh well. i've taken into consideration the thought of not being able to play in nationals. this yr. so i might not play softball in new town. SO WHAT? i'm not going to die. i'll play it when i get out. and nobody can stop me. hahahahah. yes. that's the way to think. (: go me! haha. i've moved on frm depressed to irritated. being unable to do what i wanna do. with everyone stopping me as i go along. sigh. that sucks. oh. and i also wanna say, yes i was very envious of you. you've everything i was working for. my fetish rash decision to attain sth. you have it. my 4 yrs of hard work. you've got it. i dont blame you i blame myself. i let them all go. guess i was stupid. but i cant take back what i've done. maybe i've got better things in store for me.. i guess i just have to learn frm these mistakes i've done. and hope to achieve sth in my life. i want to go to njc. really. and play softball there. cos i've given up on new town really. i'll try my best to play now. but if i cant then so be it. my consequences i've to deal with. too bad vid. u asked for it. now deal with them. stop whining. and get a grip. (:

just the girl.

VIDYA
15-going-on-16! XD
~~rafflesian~~
newtowner ):
~~e1/1'o4~~
~~e2/1'o5~~
~~e3/2'o6~~
e4/2'o7
softballer fereva!!!
catcher!!(:

she loves
-SOFTBALL!!
-ana
-goofing around
-being craaazy!
-drivin ppl mad!!
-laming around.
-HUHarharhar.
-makin ppl laugh!! (: -grinz-

she hates.
liars?*
=DOCTORS!! they suck.
=giving up. (altho i always do) )): =musicals

Wishlist

she just wants
~~/ipod shuffle~~
/score for o's
/softball!
/get past this period!
~~/my own mitt!~~
/nike shoes!!
/to get on with life.
/to play nxt yr!
/to reorganize my life.

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