Friday, January 19, 2007

- 6:24 PM

here's wad i was told .. 'your skills are there. your health isnt.'.. and here's wad i heard. 'YOU'RE FRKING NOT GOOD ENOUGH. youre a hopeless wannabe. stop dreaming and accept the truth. YOU SUCK.'
anyway. forget that. i'm just down now. no other way to describe how i feel. like shit. or worse even. to be called a softballer is a great honour. sth i dont deserve. softballers dont do stupid things like i did and do.. they are confident human beings. with a drive to succeed. see the BIG contrast between me and that? yeah. so. just picking up a ball and a glove doesnt make you a softballer. it just makes you like me, a wannabe.
story time! (: there was once a girl. who dreamt big. bigger than reality. she wanted to be a part of the major leagues. in singapore .. so that would mean like in team singapore? yeah. anyway. and she wanted to play for combined schools . wow right? yeah. BUT she couldnt even make her own sch team! how in the world does she expect to do anything else? her coach treats her indifferently and she feels it. nobody else does. she doesn like it. but she cant do anything about it. worse thing is, everyone keeps lying to her saying she's good.. full of life, bubbly, and A good SOFTBALLER. wad a lie. telling her she's good. but cant play.. is sucha crime. just tell her she's not good enough will you ?? TELL HER SHE WILL NEVER PLAY FCKING GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU. or anyone , for that matter.

just the girl.

VIDYA
15-going-on-16! XD
~~rafflesian~~
newtowner ):
~~e1/1'o4~~
~~e2/1'o5~~
~~e3/2'o6~~
e4/2'o7
softballer fereva!!!
catcher!!(:

she loves
-SOFTBALL!!
-ana
-goofing around
-being craaazy!
-drivin ppl mad!!
-laming around.
-HUHarharhar.
-makin ppl laugh!! (: -grinz-

she hates.
liars?*
=DOCTORS!! they suck.
=giving up. (altho i always do) )): =musicals

Wishlist

she just wants
~~/ipod shuffle~~
/score for o's
/softball!
/get past this period!
~~/my own mitt!~~
/nike shoes!!
/to get on with life.
/to play nxt yr!
/to reorganize my life.

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