Monday, December 04, 2006
- 4:15 PM
wad can i say.. these days. things are getting.. frm bad to worse. ): i'm feeling depressed. down.sad.bloated.irritated.down in the dumps. and worse thing is, nobody can help me out. sigh. )): is it because of you? well. i dunnoe. can't say. all i know is. i gotta finda way out soon. or else. i don't know what else to do. see.. o's comin up nxt yr. plus i've missed out on 2 months of school and life. and i'm not doing anything to catch up. it's like i'm not bothered? WHY?? WHY WHY WHY??? wish i knew. and i really just wish u wld talk to me! maybe that's why i'm so disturbed!! ARGH. i really wanna just go back and play softball all day long! but i cant even do that. i'm stuck at home. all alone. ): UGH. suicidal. again. dont worry. it's not serious. dont needa be admitted to imh. sigh. hate myself. worthless idiotic selfish me. plus ive been eating loads. which is bugging me. alot. ): sigh argh. this phase better pass soon. i'm feeling nth now. just down. alot. trying to figure out WHY WON'T YOU TALK TO ME???!! wad did i do to deserve such treatment?? sigh. im not good enough. -slits- haha. forget it. forget everything. maybe i will never go back for training. maybe i will never go back to school and maybe i will never forget you. i've lost direction and control of my life. look into my eyes and u'll see me. DEAD AS EVER.
you know the phantom to lead u in the summer? to join the black parade? yeah. that would be me. welcome to an evolution where hope prevails. yea right. just well. for those out there.
*welcome . welcome to the black parade*
would you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
i'm waiting. for you to join me.
as i venture out into the darkness
to find out who i truly am.
