Saturday, December 09, 2006
- 5:00 PM
man how do i live like this? i cant keep having you in my mind. coz it's driving me crazy! ): and besides, it's making my life miserable. why? see i'm making my own life miserable when i can easily make it fun for me right? argh. frustrating life of teenhood. YUCK. oh well. it's not that bad i guess. after this phase of mine passes. which i hope is soon!!! got my whole life ahead of me. but yet i stil think i'm wasting it on you! and i don't understand why? yeesh. this is NOT GOOD. at all. i hate this. so unfair. it's like. you're just moving on.. and not caring about me. well i dont expect you to care. i just expect maybe some.. sympathy? sigh. but no, not even one bit! argh. u keep saying nxt yr nxt yr. but u dont understand that there is no nxt yr! as in not literally. but well. guess all i'm tryin to say is. nxt yr might be too late? and you keep saying there's no hope already. so what's the point in telling me everything nxt yr? why not now? grrrr.
i better hope and pray you dont read my blog. well if u do. then that's great news. COZ THEN YOU CAN GO ARND THE WHOLE WORLD AND TELL EVERYONE HOW IRRITATING I AM RIGHT? BASTRD. you think you're so great. well newsflash! YOU'RE NOT.
but if you're not that great then why do i think about you so much? just doesnt make any sense!