Wednesday, December 20, 2006
- 3:32 PM
i'm suchan idiot. ); i'm so sad now. cos i've said alot of things rashly. and i so wish i could take em all back but i know i cant. sigh. anyway.. it sucks to be in my position. really. ); it's not fair.. i always think so. am i that bad a person? to deserve such things happening to me!? hmm. sometimes i think i am. maybe i committed some crime in my past life or sth. or maybe i did sth bad to someone. just like wad happened to me! sob. oh well. sigh. i dont know.. all i know is. i'm soooo sorry. but i know that i will never be forgiven. for anything. and everything that i did. )): and that's a big regret for me right now. sigh. but well. on the bright side.. ((= if someone says you're unworthy and stuff.. doesn that mean they're not worthy as well? heh. dont know. i'm just looking for a little hope around here. doesnt seem to be working though. NO LUCK. sigh. life full of regrets alone.. wad can i do.. just live. and regret. ): prolly shld get some sleep. jeez. i'm like a zombie. hahaha. falling asleep everywhere i go. (=