Wednesday, November 15, 2006
- 12:25 AM
when i look in your eyes, i still go crazy. no my heart just cant hide. that old feeling inside. way deep down inside. u noe when i look in your eyes, i go crazy. u say she satisfies yr mind. tells u her dreams. i know how much that means to you. i realize i was blind..
god that song rocks. it's so emo i know. but well. it's so touching. serious. see. here's the thing. i dont know what the damned title is! and neither do i know who sang it!!! ARGH. it's sooooooo annoying. want it on my ipod! hmm. but it's saddening man. very. oh well. anyway. today was okay. no wait. todae was shit. went to sch intending to study a math. so it was okay. took bus. YAY. haha. nvm. then walked to canteen. cause foyer was taken. by np. UGH haha. then saw poornima. smiling away as usual. then walked summore. so charged to study man. THEN. OH MAN. who else must be sitting there but YOU. dammit. i tell u. my heart stopped. i swear. waaahh. oh man. i was very very OMG. shaken. terribly. oh man. then couldn study. couldnt do anything! i was like shaking. goodness. i noe. y'all reading this are going 'wad a nutcase. how dumb does she sound now?' well. too bad i realize i sound like sucha dumb ass. but i cant do anything about it okay. not now at least.
nvm. had darren there. ((: EXPLODE! HAHHA. missed him lots! haha. yeaa. no choice. had to sit in canteen. but lucky. far frm that table. so not so bad. then toopid yogesh there. hahaha. np again. WAHAAHHA. wad to do. funny man he is. oh well. then went with darren and jun to meet ahmad, kavi and azy at ginza for lunch! wheee! WE ate at some sakura cuisine thing. ate rice with like dishes. some bean curd hot pot or whatever. and fish. and veggies. n stuff. well. i ate. (: heh. then went to mac. sat arnd. ordered fries. LOL. i noe it was like 3 mins after lunch. HAHAHA. heck. then went back to sch. walked. sth came over me then. i lost myself to THAT again. damn u vid! not again! but yea. again. it was so shitty. i was like walking slow. then fast. then broke down again. ran to toilet. sat there for a while. cried my eyes out. jun came to find me. she kept calling me but i didn reply. IM SO SORRY! but didn wan anyone to see me like that. then when i was done. came out. tried to wash my face. didnt work. came out. YOU again. i tell u. sth's wrong with me. WHY ME!!!??!? WAD DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS? it's not fair. why shld i suffer while you're not?? it's just not fair. I HATE YOU. and yet. i dont. life is crap yea? ARGH. then they dragged me to get my bag. WHICH WAS ON THAT TABLE. WHERE YOU WERE SITTING. WTF. WHAT'S THIS MAN. THEN YOU JUST TOOK YR BAG AND WALKED OFF. THANK GOODNESS. SCRAM YOU ASS!! STOP HAUNTING ME PLEASE. I BEG YOU! PLEASE PLEASE STOP GIVING ME SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND SENDING LAME MSGES. OH GOD. SOMEONE HELP ME? I really dont know what to do anymore. all i know is, it's driving me crazy. AND YOU DON'T EVEN CARE.
